"What are your dreams," he asks. I sit there, numb.
Do I even have any, anymore? What happened to them? Everyone has dreams. Where did they go?
I believe I may have given up on each one without even a fight. After awhile it proved to me they would never happen so why push it. Even though a lot were small they seemed too big for me to handle by myself. I felt unsupported in them and I didn't have the energy needed to make them a reality.
You see, I think anything worth having (a dream fulfilled) comes with a cost. It may be a mental thing to overcome or physical, or even emotional, or more than likely all the above. There is usually a "wall" that needs to be pushed through or perhaps some old bones in the dirt that need excavating before the foundation can be laid.
After all, Rome wasn't built in a day and it took more than one person.
Support is crucial.
I'm on a new journey now. One that I am actively and fully engaged in. I'm not blaming anyone but myself. I'm the one that chose to lie down and do nothing.
I have been given a new view of the future and it involves boldness and empowerment. That part of me somehow got lost.
These are wonderful Roxie
ReplyDeleteI can relate to so much of what you've written here, Roxi. I wish you all the best on your "new journey," wherever it may take you. I know you will find beauty and meaning there.
ReplyDeleteOh Roxi! This is SO good!! I remember the years of squashed down dreams and no support. Part of it was my own fault though. I didn't have the confidence in myself to stand up and fight for my dreams, or even think that they were obtainable. But guess what they are!
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