Finding Peace

This is what I wrote on Wednesday morning in my journal…

March 25, 2015

Some days I wish I could just 'let go' and get it all out. Just kick and scream and have a holy fit. Instead my frustrations get buried deep inside. Sadness, lack of motivation, withdrawal, total apathy. Somehow I believe the lie of hopelessness.

I pull into the driveway from a trip for coffee and see the birds playing in the yard. I nearly cry and am reminded of  the scripture in Matthew 6:26 of how he even feeds the sparrows. "Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?

My days of funk has been numerable lately. I'll call it mild depression. 

One day, about twenty years ago, I was quite depressed and the Lord spoke very clearly to me. In a nutshell He said, you are depressed because you aren't getting 'your' way. Things aren't going the way 'you' think they should. That alone was so freeing. And ever since I'll be reminded when I get in this depressive funk it's because things are NOT going the way I think they should. And sometimes I DO just want to kick and scream (because I know it's in there somewhere.) Because that's just how I feel.

No, a lot of things are not the way I would like them to be. But I must choose to not let them have so much power of me. After all, 'They're not the boss of me." But then there are many other things that I am sooooo grateful for.

Often times a little photography meditation helps.

I drove around town and stole some branches. The best pink ones were between McDonald's and Bank of America. We pay them enough interest I figure they owe me a few blooms.

I went prepared… A plastic tub with four pitchers filled with water and my snippers. And not a day too soon because the wind blew everything off the trees that night.

Hipstagram shots on the iPhone…

DreamCanvas film, BettieXL lens

DreamCanvas film, BettieXL lens

Jane film, Blanko C16 lens

Flowers for you, my friends! Have a good weekend and I hope you find your peace when things don't go the way you prefer they do.

Linking up with Kim for Friday Finds.

Hipsta Sunflowers

I found the best field of sunflowers with my Hipstamatic App.

I love using Hipstamatic. I have more lenses and film than I know what to do with. I bought some new packs a couple weeks ago and still haven't figured out all the combinations but I have saved a new favorite. Lowy lens and Robusta film. great color, sharpness and a little grunge.

Dream Canvas is certainly a favorite film. Here I've paired it with the Tejas lens on the next three.

The same flowers with Dream Canvas and the Bettie XL lens.

Ray Mark II lens and the Blanko 일 film.

And back to the first, Lowy and Robusta.

Another shot in the house with Ray MarkII with Blanko 일 film. Notice the texture is going sideways and the photo 2 back is up and down. I'll bet I had my camera turned sideways for one of them. Sometimes the dream canvas will change if you change the orientation of your camera also. Sometimes this works and sometimes I can't get it to.

You can save favorite combinations by… 

going to your Hipsta Gallery, 

double tap on the photo so it will flip and show you the info on the back side. 

Tap the lower center icon (camera),

You can now add it as A New Favorite Setting,

or tap Match Settings to take a photo right now using the same film and lens. I think the match settings is pretty cool. I use that a lot now.

Do you use the Hipstamatic app on your phone?

Linking up with Friday Finds…a little early.