Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Many Facets

The Saga Continues… (last weeks struggle)
Something is definitely getting stirred up in my life. I just now remember last year going through the same emotional roller coaster.
I like the even keel just above average euphoria mode. But growth rarely happens in that state of being.
This past week has been nothing but up and down, up and down. And Sunday it all came to a head. The morning was a little disheartening to start the day off. Then we decided to go to an early movie and saw Mockingjay. I left the movie with such a heavy heart and didn't realize until later how much I identified with Katniss. The emotional turmoil that she was going through was enough to cause her to not fight. She did not have the strength emotionally or physically. That is right where I was. Totally drained of any type of strength.
I have often in the past identified with this song by Twila Paris.
"They don't know that I go running home when I fall down,
they don't know who picks me up when no one is around.
I drop my sword for just a little while,
'cause deep inside this armor the warrior is a child.
The original 1984 version.
Perhaps I'm coming to grips with the many facets that I am….with all my vulnerabilities.
Textured with kk_magic0916.
Joining Kim for Texture Tuesday.
Kim Klassen {dot com}

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
the warrior is a child

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The Warrior is a Child

14 comments:

  1. Roxi I'm with you my friend this time of the year as the old year begins to die down waiting for the new one I begin to hibernate. Things become difficult and I feel sluggish. If ever you want to chat/ write I'm always here. xx

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  2. So with you on this, as I am having a really big birthday number at the very end of Dec. It has put me in a state for most of the last 6 months. Now usually birthdays don't do that but this one has. I have my word for next year and I hope to discover who I am and what I want the rest of my life to be. Happy Thanksgiving sweet Roxi.

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  3. Ahhh. Winter gets me in a funk each year. Not true depression. Just funk. Sending thoughts of strength for the days ahead.

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  4. I went back and read your earlier post...struggles come and go as we grow age...I have felt like you do many times and even now...the end of the and beginning of a new one toss me about a bit...I finally get that life is short and getting shorter for me...so I work hard at finding what makes me sing...be gentle with yourself Roxi...it will all come together..step back and re-group...
    Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours...

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  5. I agree with Cheryl - be gentle with yourself - it's good to stop now and again to reevaluate where you are and where you want to be. No learning is ever wasted - you've just spend some time working on something that doesn't feed your soul - you know that now. It's good that you have plans, and to-do lists, for moving forward - such a good thing. Take a break, a deep breath - and let it go.
    I have to also say that I love the song lyrics that you posted and your image is a fantastic piece of art.

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  6. I'm sorry you're having a hard time lately Roxi, be kind to yourself, and enjoy the holiday ! x

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  7. Hang in there Roxi! I'm sure you'll get back on track real soon! I love your shadow selfie and how you worked Trimaginator in with it; that's such a hard app! Have a great Turkey Day :o)

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  8. Roxi, this image is positively stunning! I like the poem too. Yes, life would not be as interesting if we stayed in that state of euphoria at all times. I guess we need the roller coasters sometimes to shake things up a bit. Hang in there.

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  9. Roxi, it sounds like you are a bit burned out (maybe a lot) ... I don't know what's going on in your life, so I can only offer my heartfelt {cyber hugs} ... and advise you to take care of yourself and honour your feelings ... do what's best for you. I hope you have a lovely Thanksgiving and get some rest ... get a good sleep, go for a walk, unplug, have a bath, read an inspiring book - I love reading Simple Abundance when I'm down, or Gift From the Sea ... your self portrait is amazing and mysterious - I so love your phone photography. xo

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  10. I am so sorry that you are going through a rough time right now but I am glad you are handling it in a positive way…Acknowledging and sharing your feelings is a very healthy approach. I am sure you will find the right path just like you have in the past. I hope you will be gentle with yourself and do some of those things that bring you joy….
    I hope you have a blessed Thanksgiving. Please remember even though I don't know you very well, I care and I will say a prayer for you.
    Hugs…...

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  11. Beautifully done collage. To me, it conveys some of what you must be feeling. Rough times do come and can be debilitating. I am a good listener…if you wish.

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  12. I am so proud of you for continuing to work through this, as hard as it is to do.

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  13. Nicely done, Roxi. Thanks for sharing. It's those vulnerabilities that strike a chord with people. You are human--welcome to the club. You'll get through it and find the other side ... -- Michele At Sweet Leaf

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  14. Life rarely holds easy answers, but keep searching...and then rest at the foot of the Cross.

    xoxo

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I read and appreciate all your comments. Have a blessed day!